Thursday, September 1, 2016

This summer


I hadn't planned to stop posting for quite so long—but, it happened anyway. So here's a quick recap of the last few months:

The summer began with an extended vacation in Sicily, although, I use "vacation" lightly, as turns out that taking a 6-month-old baby to a "foreign" country during a heat wave and mosquito infestation isn't exactly relaxing (do you know how much gear a baby at the beach requires?). But, off we went and got our fill of sun and gelato and seafood and we even (somehow) managed to fit in a road trip.

We spent a week driving around the island, first renting a house on the northern coast in Scopello and then on the southern coast in Marina di Ragusa. The rest of our 5 weeks were spent in R's hometown, introducing RF to his Sicilian family and R's childhood haunts.

When we returned with our 23094820394 pieces of luggage, I would have loved to relax a bit and enjoy a truly spectacular Swedish summer (warm, sunny, and hallelujah, no humidity!), but we jumped right into house hunting because nothing has changed on the crazy Swedish real estate market front and as our apartment rental contract is ending soon, we decided we needed to get serious about buying so we wouldn't have the stress of possibly being kicked out at any time weighing down on us. So rather than spend days picnicking on the waterfront for the last few weeks of R's paternity leave, we borrowed a car to explore neighborhoods and visit open houses that coincided with RF's nap time.

Then, as if that wasn't enough to keep us from lazing about this summer, I went back to work part-time just as RF turned 8 months old and could be away from me for longer periods of time (a concept that was simultaneously liberating and devastating), and now both R and I each work part-time and stay home to take care of RF part-time, which we'll hopefully be able to continue doing until it's time for our little munchkin to start förskola/dagis (pre-school) next spring.

And that—with walks, fika's, baby playdates, baby-proofing the house to keep our crawling / standing / cruising little guy safe, a bit of knitting here and there, and the return of cocktail hour—was our summer. How was yours?

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Untethered

Djurgården & Strandvägen, Stockholm, Swdeden  |  Untethered on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
There were times at the beginning of this year when I really thought I had lost my mind.

A newborn baby and no sleep for days during the depths of a Swedish winter (which I had naively thought would be "cozy" with a cuddly wee one, but was actually debilitating and isolating), plus some physical problems we were having all combined into a Very Heavy and Overwhelming Period.

But then the combination of surpassing (and barely surviving) RF's 4-Month Sleep Regression, his ability to space out his mealtimes, his increased curiosity and awareness of the world around him (so much so that we did an early switch from the carry cot to the sit-up seat attachment of his stroller), and springtime finally rolling around meant that we were finally free to go on long, beautiful walks around the city with a contented baby and a less-stressed mamma who no longer had to constantly search for suitable places to nurse (and change diapers) in anticipation of a hungry baby's wails.


And let me tell you, this period right now is so, so good. Most days the sun is shining brilliantly and it's a delightful 70F outside, meaning we've been spending hours and hours walking, meeting friends, fika'ing, and playing outside the walls of our apparently very-boring-to-a-baby apartment.

Plus, this lovely weather means al fresco nursing and diaper changes are a breeze and has greatly reduced my anxiety when we're away from home. Below the stroller I've stashed blankets, toys, a bottle of water and an emergency chocolate bar (because you just never know), so we're always ready to stretch out in a patch of sun-dappled shade to play and relax in between running errands and strolling around the city.


We've been taking long walks along the edges of Kungsholmen, across the bridge to the grounds of the Karlbergs Castle park / Military Academy near Saint Eriksplan, all around Djurgården, winding through Vasastan, Odenplan (with obligatory stops at Cafè Pascal), and Norrmalm, and even hopping on a bus to go to Drottningholm, one of the palaces, to play on some royal grounds.

And much like our after-work pizza picnics in Vasapark last summer, this year we're doing a riff on that with early afternoon (because of someone's bedtime) barbecues in our backyard in Minneberg.


All this to say, someone's starting to get her groove back.

(Said groove will probably not be completely back until someone else starts sleeping for more than 2.5 hours in a row at night, but a partial groove is better than no groove at all.)

One year ago: Leaving Vasastan & An unwelcome lull & 365 days ago

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Thursday, May 12, 2016

The day I became an Italian citizen

Stadshuset Kungsholmen Riddarholmen, Stockholm, Sweden  |  The day I became an Italian citizen on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
My (at times excruciatingly) long journey to becoming an Italian / E.U. citizen is finally complete—a few days ago we went to the Italian Consulate on Djurgården so I could pledge my allegiance to the Italian Republic and officially become one of her citizens.

At the end of last year, three and a half years after I applied for citizenship, a certified letter arrived with the news that citizenship had been conferred upon me and I just needed to do a few final things to make it officially official, like, re-submitting translated and notarized documents from U.S. agencies that were included in my original application (yes, again), swearing my oath, and (naturally) paying another fee.

When R became an American citizen, he did so with a certain amount of pomp and circumstance (which I enjoyed in my exhausted and anxious state)—to be fair, he took his oath along with about a hundred other people in America.

I became an Italian citizen while living in Sweden and did so in a "ceremony" just for me.

The ceremony being: arriving at a very, very sad little building where nary an Italian flag was waving, waiting for one hour past our scheduled appointment time to be ushered up a rickety pair of stairs to an office filled with boxes of documents and lined with shelves of rubber stamp doohickeys, and reading the one-line oath off of a printout twice (as it took two separate tries to assemble the required number of witnesses).

That was it.

No Italian paraphernalia. No anthems. No miniature flag handed to me on my way out (R received a miniature American one in NYC and RF received one here in Stockholm when we took him to the US Consulate to register him as an American citizen).

When we walked out of the gloomy building, not even the gorgeous day on Djurgården (one of my favorite places in Stockholm) and RF's adorable drool-y smile as he looked up at us happily from his stroller could shake me out of the funk brought on after such a long-awaited day ended up being so disappointing.

But then R told me he had booked a celebratory lunch for us at Villa Godthem on the northern side of Djurgården, where we had a tasty, typically-Swedish lunch on the waterfront (which included the gifting of a very nice little gift). Afterwards we strolled across the lane to Flickorna Helin & Voltaire for dessert on the terrace (which was obviously a ridiculous slice of their decadent carrot cake for me).

Then, since the day was just so supremely sunny and beautiful (and because I had stashed you-never-know blankets in the stroller), we laid them out under a tree with a view of my favorite villa on Norra Djurgården and spent the rest of the afternoon lolling about lazily while watching RF practice his rolling over skills.

Turns out I had my very own personal Italian(s) to provide me with all the fanfare italiano I so desperately wanted.


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Friday, April 15, 2016

Stitch by stitch

Rhino Romper knit baby onesie  |  Stitch by stitch on afeathery*nest  |  afeatherynest.com
While some things have noticeably gone missing from my daily routine—and will most likely stay missing for quite some time to come—since this handsome fellow arrived (e.g., I haven't done any yoga since just before I gave birth and a proper cocktail is a distant memory...as is a full night of sleep), one thing that has resurfaced is my knitting bag.

With the mental fogginess and physical exhaustion that comes with caring for a wee, helpless, and infinitely adorable baby, knitting is my only form of "meditation" right now—a more involved alternative to my calming (and frantically-executed on steamy NYC subway platforms) practice.

It's my (very necessary) way of taming the frazzled, sleep-deprived brainwaves jolting through my mind. Of rinsing the day's small trials and losses of patience from my conscience while replaying its spectacular moments of delight in baby laughs and gummy smiles, in a rounded tummy and a sweet little tush.

Rhino Romper knit baby onesie  |  Stitch by stitch on afeathery*nest  |  afeatherynest.com

Stitch by stitch, breath in by breath out.

It's also much easier to manage than rolling out my yoga mat and contorting myself into positions that are now precarious thanks to my new lack of coordination (thanks to my new lack of sleep).

Rather than sitting on the sofa after dinner while watching something with R and knitting away as I used to, I find my crafty moments during the day when RF is napping snugly in a wrap tied around my chest and I can peer over the curve of his cheeks to see what I'm doing. It's the coziest thing to listen to his little snuffles while I rock back and forth and click my needles in rhythm.

Dulaan Baby Jumper  |  Stitch by stitch on afeathery*nest  |  afeatherynest.com

Dulaan Baby Jumper  |  Stitch by stitch on afeathery*nest  |  afeatherynest.com


I came across this recently and it perfectly encapsulates why, aside from ensuring a small measure of sanity for myself, I knit:
"For many knitters, the small act of creating a sock, a hat, or a scarf is an act of love. Of community. Of creativity, of soul saving, sometimes a rebellion against the constraints of everyday life. Knitting is an escape, a haven, a hidey hole that restores us and gives us a bit of control when many things in life are beyond our reach."

As does this:
"The essential thing about knitting that I will never get over is here you have these sticks and this string, and then you look down and you have this object. It’s a very small act of hope, especially when the person you’re knitting for isn’t even here yet."
It's true, I can't control when we'll find a new, more permanent place to live or when RF will learn to connect his sleep cycles or where we'll be able enroll him in dagis. But I can choose the right needles and yarn and pattern, and I can choose to spend a few quiet moments at the end of the day with yarn gliding through my fingers as I create something from nothing—my own small act of hope that all will be well.

Dulaan Baby Jumper  |  Stitch by stitch on afeathery*nest  |  afeatherynest.com
Lately I've been working on a little "spring collection" for my winter baby, although I think it will begin and end with these two pieces. I've realized after much newborn knitting that perhaps it's better to knit garments for a baby that can sit up and crawl, or for a toddler that can toddle, because knits (even non-bulky ones), aren't as easy to maneuver onto a baby and when said baby is picked up and carried quite a bit or spends most of his time prostrate, thicker textiles that can bunch up is probably a little irritating for him, as well as for the person who is constantly tugging his clothes into place.

...Which is why I had the idea to knit a onesie, but even so, I'm going to start knitting a few sizes up from now on and have a nice little wardrobe ready for him for this coming autumn and winter.

P.S. The onesie was originally a romper, as seen in the first picture, but I didn't like how the shorts legs looked when I finished so I unraveled the hem and reknit it as a onesie (as seen in the second picture).

P.P.S. Ravelry notes here and here.


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Monday, April 11, 2016

Straddling three countries

Norr Mälarstrand, Kungsholmen, Gamla Stan, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Straddling three countries on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

If figuring out our own citizenship requirements for each others' countries wasn't enough, we had to go through the same procedure for RF (which I've been mentally preparing for...for a while), albeit a much simpler one, as he automatically took our three nationalities at birth.

The Swedish registration was done for us via the baby's birth center registration, and the Italian one just required taking one form, one notarized document from the tax office and a copy of our passports to the consulate, but the American one? That required an entire folder of documents, plus a hefty fee.

When I looked into it last fall and saw what my birth country required, I began putting everything together well before my due date so all we would have to do in our newborn haze was take a picture of the baby and make a few appointments, and so before he was three months old he was already officially registered as a citizen of the US, Italy and Sweden, and had his American and one EU passport ready to go.

I had thought that that would be the most strenuous thing I'd need to think through this year, but then it came time to begin his vaccinations and I realized our little tri-national baby would need a modified vaccine schedule.

Before Sweden began attracting such high numbers of foreigners, this country was fairly isolated, so the vaccine schedule wasn't (and still isn't) as wide-reaching as the U.S. and Italy's. Given that we plan on spending time in both of those countries, and with family that live in them that will be visiting us here in Sweden, I went through each one's vaccine schedule to figure out what we needed for RF.

During his regular (free) appointments with the baby nurse, he's already getting the Swedish schedule of vaccines, which is the same as both the U.S. and Italy's, with two exceptions: chickenpox/varicella (which the U.S. gives around 12 months, and Italy much later, during pre-teen/teenage years) and meningitis (the U.S. gives the A, C, W, and Y strains during teenage years unless a risk factor calls for an early dose, and Italy does the same with the C strain).

Sweden generally has a low risk for meningitis so the vaccine isn't part of the schedule; and the thinking here is that children shouldn't get the chicken pox vaccine, but rather get infected with the virus and heal from it on their own when they're young.

But we want to get RF vaccinated on the early side because of his exposure to Americans and Italians that have been vaccinated and because we've had a meningitis scare (in Sweden!) in the family—and also because we've decided that when it's time, we'd like to send him to one of Stockholm's international dagis (daycare), where the primary language spoken is English and the children that attend are generally from expat families (and will have been vaccinated against chicken pox and meningitis, for the most part).

The vaccines that are not included in the Swedish schedule seem to be easy to get on one's own—all throughout Stockholm there are standalone vaccine clinics (I'm assuming that given all the international travel that Swedes do there's a pretty big need), one of which we'll be heading to around RF's first birthday to get his supplemental vaccines.

Stadshuset, City Hall, Kungsholmen, Gamla Stan, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Straddling three countries on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

Speaking of dagis, even though RF is only a few months old, we've already started looking into them, because like the crazy housing situation in Stockholm, the dagis queue is just as frustrating.

The way it works here is that children are eligible to begin daycare when they're a year old, but they can be put in the queue to enter their chosen dagis as soon as they hit 6 months—and most people generally still have to wait a few months (or years) to get into the school they want even though they'll be guaranteed a place somewhere in their city within 2 months.

Like in other Scandinavian countries, the concept of a full-time, stay-at-home-parent for all of a child's childhood is very uncommon in Sweden—most parents return to work at least part-time by the time their child is 2 years old so the dagis world is something nearly every parent in Sweden experiences. To encourage parents to stay in the workforce, dagis is very affordable—parents pay a percentage of their income up to a max of about $150 a month for the first child (and progressively less for each subsequent child).

While it translates to "daycare", dagis is really more like pre-school in that they all adhere to a pedagogical style (Reggio Emilia, Montessori, Waldorf, etc.) and children learn social and mobil skills and about the world around them—but the emphasis is not on reading (in fact, most children here don't learn to read until they're 7 or 8), but rather on how to function in the world. The kids learn about other cultures (a big reason why we want RF to go to an international school—there's a larger focus on this), table manners, how to share, and about nature (a LOT of time is spent outdoors, regardless of the weather).

Children can attend dagis from one year of age until they're 5 years old, and then there's the option to do a preparatory pre-school year at age 6 to get ready for compulsory schooling, which begins at age 7 with the equivalent of the U.S.'s first grade.

While we haven't figured out the daycare situation for RF just yet, I'm completely in awe of what I've seen so far of the system that's in place here.


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Monday, March 7, 2016

Tootsie toppers

Knit baby legwarmers  |  Tootsie toppers on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
After I bound off the final stitch on the last knit goodie I'd planned to make for RF before his appearance, I decided to spend the last few weeks of my pregnancy making something for myself. I'd stopped in at two local yarn stores near Odenplan on the hunt for a particular shade of red for a gift, but rather than leave empty handed when I didn't find what I was looking for, I was enticed by a beautiful, variegated alpaca yarn (on sale) and a teensy pair of double-pointed knitting needles made specifically for knitting socks.

As so often happens, I gave into the temptation of something new (the yarn and the needles) and managed to forget that I don't particularly like knitting socks. They can be a bit tedious because when you finally finish one, there's still another whole sock to do. And while I've knit the kind of socks you use as slippers at home, I'd never knit proper socks to wear with shoes, which are finer and more delicate (and thus take more time when using teeny needles).

But forget all of that I did, and I scooped up a hank of the alpaca yarn and a new pair of needles and made my way home where I cobbled together my own pattern using one person's broken seed stitch pattern, another's interesting heel technique, and Purl Soho's general guidelines from their Pixel Stitch socks.

I managed to get 1.5 socks done before RF's grand appearance, and needless to say, the insanity that is life with a newborn means that I didn't get around to that last half a sock until recently.

Handknit wool socks  |  Tootsie toppers on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
Handknit wool socks  |  Tootsie toppers on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
Luckily Stockholm has been cooperating with the continuation of winter weather into March so there was/is still time for me to to make use of them this year and I have to say—hand knit wool socks (even ones with a few cosmetic irregularities here and there where I made mistakes but didn't have the patience to fix them) feel amazing inside winter boots.

(Amazing feeling aside, I don't think I'll be making another pair anytime soon.)

Once I'd finished these I needed a quick hit—something easy, fun and interesting to knit so I could recover from the monotony of those socks. Enter RF, who had finally put on enough weight to be able to wear the POOPS! cloth diapers we'd purchased from a local Swedish company for him.

Even though he's now big enough to wear them without fear of leakage, he's still small enough that we have to button them on at the smallest setting, which creates quite a bit of bulk around his tush and makes comfortably wearing the pants for his actual size a bit tough. So rather than cram him in his pants (and since we're still using disposables when we're out for long periods of the day), I realized I could keep him pantless at home if I knit some legwarmers to pop on his little legs.

Knit baby legwarmers  |  Tootsie toppers on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
I found a pattern for boot cuffs that I repurposed into legwarmers and voilà, comfy and warm and cabled while still being pantless.

(Note: those legwarmers are actually worn higher on the leg, but I didn't pull them up all the way so his tickle-able thighs could be in the picture.)

P.S. Ravelry notes: socks + legwarmers


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Thursday, March 3, 2016

A Sunday on the farm at Resta Gård

The view from Resta Gård Örsundsbro Stockholm  |  A Sunday on the farm at Resta Gård on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

I've long had an affinity for rich, farm-fresh milk in (reusable) glass bottles, but the closest thing I've found in Sweden to my beloved Hudson Valley Ronnybrook Creamline milk, which is pasteurized, but not homogenized, so the cream rises lusciously to the top, is lantmjölk, or gammaldagsmjölk (country and old-fashioned milk, respectively). But the most accessible one is from the biggest dairy supplier, which is not inherently a bad thing at all, I just find the notion of drinking local milk to be so much more romantic.

So when we were wandering through Gamla Stan in January and came across Resta Gårdsbutik, the city outpost of a farm an hour north of Stockholm, I was intrigued. The urban storefront is teeny, but beautifully set up with inviting chalkboard signs outside proclaiming lovingly-grown produce and milk and meat from well-cared for animals. We stepped inside and after one sip of their milk (and one glance at the beautiful glass bottles), we bought one to take home.

We were so enamored with the charming experience in Gamla Stan that we Googled the actual farm to find that not only is it an ecological farm, but a visitable one, too, so we began to plot when we could make it up for their weekend open hours, especially after seeing all their cozy homespun pictures and posts on Instagram and Facebook.

One gorgeously sunny Sunday work schedules and transportation availability aligned and we were finally able to make the drive up to visit the farm. We wandered around the property, accompanied by the owners' dog for a bit, and said hello to the sheep, the pigs, the piglets and the horses. The farm has only been up and running for a very short time, but the owners told us that they're already planning big things in the coming seasons (including hens, a B&B, etc.) for the property, which is nestled among open fields an easy drive from Stockholm.

Sheep at Resta Gård Örsundsbro Stockholm  |  A Sunday on the farm at Resta Gård on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
Roasting Korv at Resta Gård Örsundsbro Stockholm  |  A Sunday on the farm at Resta Gård on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

After visiting the animals and walking about we tucked ourselves into the small farmhouse shop to purchase korv (sausages) to roast over the open fire pit that had been lit outside. An afternoon spent with our faces turned toward the (surprisingly blazing!) sun, munching on piping hot sausages and listening to the livestock nuzzle around was the perfect way to spend a Sunday afternoon—and a lovely first excursion out of Stockholm for our little guy. We drove away completely refreshed from our romp in the country air—and with a trunk full of sausages, cuts of meat, and bottles of milk to take home.


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Friday, February 12, 2016

Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost

Gamla Stan & Södermalm, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
Now that our little guy is just over two months old, I've finally had a little time (and brain power) to think back on giving birth to him with something less akin to panic and more akin to fondness.

I mentioned before that I didn't put too much thought or preparation into the particulars of going through labor and delivering, but there were a few things that I wanted to have happen, namely, the use of water therapy, the avoidance of medical intervention, and no need for stitches (all of which I've been thinking about for many years).

Instead? No bathtub, lots of medical (read: chemical) intervention, and: stitches.

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My contractions began the evening of the day after my due date, but we didn't go to the birthing center until 24 hours later, after I had been experiencing contractions at home for an entire day. I had been in contact with the midwives at the birthing center ever since I first saw signs of impending labor, which happened 15 hours prior to my contractions starting, and we stayed in contact until I was finally told to come in.

I first called them (excitedly!) at 4AM when I lost my mucous plug—they talked me through what would happen next and how to manage the latent phase contractions when they started. Since my labor progressed so slowly, we ended up calling them quite a few times (each time a little less excitedly and a bit more frantically) before actually going in, and each time a patient, supportive woman reassured me and—thinking back on this now makes me a little emotional—made sure to tell me that I was strong and doing great.

Stockholm apartment buildings  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com

Even after 24 hours of contractions had passed, they were still not close enough (i.e., 3-5 minutes apart, mine were 7-9 minutes apart) to warrant leaving the house, but when we called the midwives (again) to update them on my condition, they suggested I come in to be checked given how tired I said I felt and how far away I still was from active labor.

We called a taxi, grabbed our bag and headed in around 10PM. A midwife greeted us and did an exam, after which she related the (frustrating) news that I was only 2 cm dilated—you aren't admitted until you're at 4 (out of 10 cm) dilated, but I couldn't face the thought of going home as I was exhausted and nervous because of how slow my labor was advancing and R knew that, so he spoke with the midwives on call and they allowed us to spend the night in the "new family hotel", even though we were clearly not yet a 2+ family.

As the pain accelerated I took a dose of Alvedon (like Tylenol), a hot shower, and had a round of acupuncture, but by 3AM I couldn't breathe through the contractions anymore, so we pressed the call button for the midwives. Another painful check revealed I was almost 5 cm dilated and we were finally ready to be admitted to a birthing room. We quickly put our things together and moved to the room where we'd meet our little one.

Stockholm apartment buildings  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com
I hadn't expected the pain to be so intense at that point—or rather, I had expected to have a higher pain tolerance, but whether that was just wishful thinking or my exhaustion at having experienced contractions without end for 30'ish hours had weakened me, or a combination of both, I immediately asked to try the lustgas (laughing gas), one of the natural pain therapies available. And when the midwives saw, as by then I was strapped to a monitor, that I was experiencing double contractions (overlapping ones, fun!), they had me hooked up to the gas in no time.

(There was absolutely no way I could have gotten into a tub at that point, which is why my hoped-for water labor didn't happen.)

The laughing gas worked well for a few hours, but not enough that I was able to rest before I would have to begin pushing so R and I talked with the midwives and made the decision that I would begin to get a small dose of an epidural—the one thing I'd hoped to avoid (given what I'd read about how it can make it hard for a woman to feel the final contractions and push effectively and how it can affect when your milk comes in*), but I knew that in order to get our baby out I'd need to rest, so I acquiesced.

The anesthesiologist came, prepped me, and began the dosage, which (luckily) in Sweden is done gradually, in very small amounts, versus one huge one, which helped me make the decision to have it. It did the trick and I was able to sleep for a few hours, which meant that R finally could, too.

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Our son's birth day had dawned beautiful and blue-skied, and dozing off in a sun-filled room while staring out picture windows to the greenery outside was a teensy bit magical (and not just because of the drugs).

Gustavs Kyrka, Odenplan, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com


When we woke up around mid-day it was go time.

In Sweden, women are encouraged to try multiple positions and apparatuses to help the baby descend. I tried a few things: sitting on an exercise ball, standing with a birthing "walker", and sitting on a birthing stool with R positioned behind me.

None of those did the trick, so I moved to the actual birthing bed and rather than laying down with knees bent as you see on T.V., I tried pushing while on all fours with R standing behind the bed and facing me, but still no baby.

By then my energy level was nonexistent, so the midwives helped me lay on my side while one raised a leg, another applied warm compresses, and the third, most senior one, guided our little boy out.

Not even two seconds had passed between him emerging and the midwife laying him next to me so that both R and I could stare down at the wondrous little being we'd created. I would go through everything again just to relive that singular moment of joy we shared when we first locked eyes with our son and were transformed from wife and husband to mamma and papà.

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It wasn't until a few moments had passed that I realized we didn't know if the baby snuggled up to me was a boy or a girl—in another departure from what you see on T.V., the midwife didn't call out what she saw (or didn't see) when she delivered the baby and handed it to me. I had the delight of peeking down below myself to see what was what and excitedly proclaim to R, "it's a boy!".

We stayed in our birthing room for a few hours while I was cleaned and sewed up—and unlike what I've heard about the majority of post-birth activities in the U.S., our baby stayed in my arms the entire time. He wasn't taken away to be cleaned up or even weighed.

A good two hours passed before I was able to sit up and then R, who had taken off his shirt in preparation, was finally able to cuddle with his son warm against his chest while I showered and dressed.

Then a midwife brought in the Swedish spread I had been promised—flutes of sparkling cider, coffee, open-faced sandwiches and a wooden Swedish flag tchotchke taking center stage on the tray. After we'd had our little bedside feast, another midwife came back to measure and weigh the baby and help R to give him his first bath.

View of Gamla Stan from Norr Malarstrand, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com
At that point we were ready to be moved to the Patient Hotel, where new parents and their brand new babies can stay for up to two nights (for births without complications) to recover and get to know their little one while all their needs are taken care of and midwives are on call in case any help is required.

When people back home saw photos of our room they were astonished—it contained a queen-size bed (with two mattresses and separate adjustment controls so both the mamma and papà can choose whether to lay down or sit up), night stands, a table and two chairs, a closet, and a private bathroom with a shower. Throughout the room small red buttons were installed, and pressing any one of them would bring a midwife to the door.

It happened that we were at the hotel over the Santa Lucia feast day and in true Swedish fashion we were treated to a Santa Lucia procession at dawn. I was nursing the baby when I said to R, "do you hear singing?". A few minutes later there was a gentle knock at the door and then someone poked their head through to ask if we'd like to have our door opened so we could enjoy the procession. Of course we said yes, and we soon saw the preceding glow of candlelight from around the corner before a group of ladies dressed in white robes, clasping candles, and with green crowns on their heads came to our door to serenade us.

As they moved on to the next room we were brought mugs of glögg (warm spiced wine, but ours were nonalcoholic) and lussekatter (saffron buns). There's no way we could have had a more perfect first morning with our winter baby—snuggling with him and R in the glow of candlelight and the scent of saffron made everything about the previous days' labor vanish from my memory (...at least temporarily).

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The biggest and perhaps best advantage of giving birth in Sweden is the incredible care provided by the midwives. No matter where you give birth in this country, the pre-natal maternal care and actual delivery are all handled by midwives. You'll only see a doctor if there's a serious complication.

We chose to give birth at BB Stockholm, one of the birthing centers within a hospital (Danderyds Sjukhus) in Stockholm. There's a stand alone birth center in the center of the city (BB Sophia), but we opted to be close to a hospital, just in case. (One of the Swedish princesses gave birth to her son there last summer, not that that's why we chose it, but it was nice to know that it met royal standards.)

Stadshuset City Hall Stockholm, Sweden  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com

I'm sure that all of the birthing centers and hospital labor and delivery wings provide amazing care, but we both felt that the care we received at BB Stockholm was incredible and could not possibly have been better anywhere else.

Despite not getting to have the birth I wanted, I never once felt scared (at least for my health or safety, for my pain, yes) or alone or helpless. At every step of the way there was a midwife offering encouragement to me, explaining everything to us that was happening (in perfect English!), laying a calming hand on my forehead or on my arm, and always being warm, chatty and sympathetic. There was a level of intimacy and kindness that I can't imagine having somewhere else (certainly not in NYC if I'd given birth at a hospital that accepted whatever insurance I happened to have). And when our son was finally born even the midwives were moved (I saw a tear!) and gave us both big hugs.

While the three teams of women that saw us through from my admittance to us taking our little boy home (plus the ones who answered our phone calls for the day-and-a-half prior to us even walking into the birthing center) officially carry the title of midwife, we'll always think of them as the angelic, blue-smocked shepherdesses who helped me bring our son into this world.

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And the cost of the tremendous care we received?

Gamla Stan from Norr Malarstrand, Stockholm, Sweden  |  Giving birth in Sweden: Labor, delivery, and the cost  |  http://afeatherynest.com
Not only did I not pay a single thing over 40 weeks of prenatal care (nor are we paying anything now for our son's initially weekly, now bi-weekly checkups), but the actual price of giving birth in Sweden was zero.

The only thing that comes with a cost is the stay at the Patient Hotel—mammas pay 100 kronor, or ~$12 per day for care and all meals, while the papàs/the other partner pay 500 kronor, or ~$60 per day. For the two-and-a-half days we were at the hospital, the total cost we paid upon leaving was $144. Not too shabby for giving birth and recovering in the 5th best country in the world for maternal health.

Although that midwife care? We could never put a price tag on that.

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More on Swedish healthcare, prenatal care and giving birth in Sweden:

* Whether it was an effect of the epidural or not I don't know, but in the last moments of delivery I did indeed (terrifyingly) have trouble "feeling" when to push, the result of which was a painful-to-recover-from set of stitches. My milk also came in "late". (But even if I'd known that that would have been the case for me, I'd still have taken the epidural.)


One year ago: The end of the year festivities & A wintry sunset walk
Two years ago: 2014: the beginning & Week 1
Three years ago: Postcard from Honduras & A sheaf of the past


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Thursday, January 21, 2016

2015: The year that was

Drottningholm, Stockholm, Sweden  |  2015: The year that was on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com
[A bit late this year, but I have a good excuse...it will be quiet for a few more weeks until I can tear myself away from milky baby gurgles and chubby baby fingers.]

As in previous years (2012, 2013, 2014), here's this year's swan song.

1. What did you do in 2015 that you'd never done before?
  • Made snow angels...as an adult
  • Argued with a Swede in Swedish (albeit a short argument)
  • Went on a(n overnight) cruise
  • Rode on a motorcycle in Sweden
  • And...had a baby

2. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes—quite a few friends (and acquaintances), both here and in the U.S.

3. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes.

4. What countries did you visit? Cities?

5. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
2016 is going to be so different from any other year in my life that I don't think I can really compare it to 2015, but in any case, a few repeats from last year:
  • Greater ease with speaking Swedish, although I don't see this happening until I'm working in an office environment again (or until our little guy starts having playdates with Swedes).
  • An apartment/house where we'll be able to settle in for more than a few months/year.
  • The kind of work that makes you excited to sit down at your desk and get started (after my maternity leave).
  • More local friends...I think the New Mamma/Parent groups arranged by the local baby nurses will help with this (more on that later).

    Skeppsbron, Stockholm, Sweden  |  2015: The year that was on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

    6. What dates from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory?

    7. What was your biggest achievement of the year? 
    A safe and healthy pregnancy, followed by surviving 40 hours of labor to deliver our son.

    8. What was your biggest failure?
    Repeated from last year: not practicing Swedish enough (or...at all, at least not verbally)
      9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
      Just some pregnancy related aches and pains.

      10. What were the best things you bought?

      11. Where did most of your money go?
      Travel, baby things, rent.

      12. What made you happy/got you excited?

      Kungsträdgården cherry blossoms, Stockholm, Sweden  |  2015: The year that was on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

      13. Are you happier or sadder than last year? Thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?
      Happier. A wee bit fatter—although this year's weight is not of my own doing, unlike last year (which I blame on the chokladbolls). Poorer.

      (Another year proving that being thinner and richer do not equal happier!)

      14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
      • Speaking Swedish. 
      • Interesting work projects. 
      • Bicycling. 
      • Been more outgoing/gone to more Meetups.

      15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
      Hmmm, worrying/stressing, I suppose.

      16. How did you spend Christmas?
      At home, with a newborn, surrounded by family and friends from NY, Sicily and Stockholm. We had our usual Christmas Eve dinner, but this year I was only responsible for feeding/cleaning up after one person and spent the majority of the holiday on the couch with a bottle of water next to me and a warm, cuddly little body snuggled up against me.

      17. What was your favorite TV program?
      Old standbys that are still going strong:
      • Homeland 
      • Downton Abbey 
      • Scandal
      • Madame Secretary
      New entrants:
      • The Good Wife
      • Blue Bloods
      • Graceland

      Monteliusvägen, Södermalm, Stockholm, Sweden  |  2015: The year that was on afeathery*nest  |  http://afeatherynest.com

      18. What were your favorite books of the year?

      19. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
      Turned 32 in Lampedusa, where we went on an ill-fated hike but recovered with the most amazing dinner at Cavalluccio Marino.

      20. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
      This year turned out pretty darn well, but perhaps on the non-home and family front I wouldn't have minded some more interesting and satisfying work.

      21. What kept you sane?
      • Long, long walks (when I could)
      • Knitting (23.5 projects this year)
      • Reading (20 books this year, and all-time low for me)
      • Fika'ing 
      • Motorcycling (while I could)

      22. Recount a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015
      Sometimes it's better to not say anything at all.
      (Relearned this one.)

      One year ago: 2014: The year that was + The end of the year festivities
      Two years ago: 2013: The year that was + Red-eyed revelry & Christmas traditions
      Three years ago 2012: The year that was + Merry Christmas from Honduras!

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